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[Nov. 16th, 2007|11:48 am] |
sometimes your past comes back to bite you in the ass, in the worst possible way.
At least thanksgiving is soon. |
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| TELEPHONEEEEEEEEEEEEE |
[Sep. 3rd, 2007|11:19 am] |
So I am back at school in good old Purchase, Ny. I have a wonderful living situation. I have a single in a suite with some really cool dudes. We have been pretty much fucked up the whole time and it's been an enjoyable time.
I did something the other day, which was totally unlike me and my luck has been so different since. I might have only done it cuz i was wasted, but it was still a little bit awesome.
The only downer in my life is I had an old co worker/friend come back into my life. Before she quit we were both flirting like crazy and had both expressed feelings for each other. There was the one problem of a boy friend who she was living with because her life was so fucked she couldn't live at home. When she quit, we went our other directions. There was a time when her bf cheated on her and she called me then she went away again. But recently, a job was available and she started contacting me again. I did not know that. With words of how much i missed you and I always think about you. It brought back those old feelings. When I was to return to work I was informed of her wanting to get a job with the company again. I then realized I was being used. She was still living with her boy friend and she did not want me, she wanted me to help her get the job. I kindly try see if there was a way to continue a friendship, but this morning I decided that why was she worth any of this trouble. Because for some reason I feel the need to express my feelings to other people I told her I could not be friends with her anymore and wished her the best of luck.
Fuck her. Someone brought up that this was supp to be the best years of my life. Honestly theyhavent. I let stupid shit bring me down all the time. This is will be different. I just dont care that much anymore and I don't want to be in the middle anymore. I cant solve everyones problems and bring everyone back.
It's a beautiful day outside and I have off today and tomorrow.
Also, I got a number of a girl who has an interest in world world II and history. To say beside the fact she was cute, I got a semi right there. She wanted MY number. |
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[Jun. 1st, 2007|03:59 pm] |
So Summer has begun. I haven't done anything really to post about.
Well I went to London. That was amazing. I saw a lot. I think i enjoyed it more than everyone else because I enjoy history. Im glad to be back in the grand USA.
I am at RCC, taking two classes on Tues-Thursdays. I never thought 3 hour classes were hard, but when your there twice a day 3 days a week, they take a lot of you. They aren't hard classes, but as I learned some kids don't know that there was a year 0.
In two weeks I start my internship at Roadrunner, which will be a amazing chance because it star when my classes end and I will still be able to make $ this summer. For the most part I will be calling radio stations around the country and helping out with press with new albums.
There is Michelle's graduation party next weekend, which im excited for but I have to be back at work at 8pm for inventory. Then there is a Syndicate party at beer gardens in queens the week afterwards.
I really hope I can see D4 again. See The lawrence arms once. And that the new against me record is better than the last one.
"Shut Up Hamilla!' |
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[May. 15th, 2007|02:51 am] |
Killing Yourself to Live: 85% of a True Story
by Chuck Klosterman
was read in one full day on a long trip from london back to the us of a.
I might just be drunk. I might just be tired, maybe just drunk and tired. But i cant stop thinking about what he said in this book.
it was good real good.
"Shut up Hamilla!" |
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[May. 7th, 2007|02:05 am] |
So im home from my finals after my junior year of school. I tried hard this semester, so hopefully I’ll be good to go next semester. Im only worried about one class.
Home has been okay, kinda lame, kinda fun. Kinda boring, but Im enjoying not have to deal with radio things and people Id rather not see and shitty food.
Hot topic has been fun. I swear I encounter some really weird people there. It’s really easy to try and sell things to people when you act like a jackass(this only works for people under 15 ) They love me there and it beats working at drug world.
Im going to London on Wednesday and I’ll be back on Monday night. Im kinda of really excited. The weather seems like it will be damp a lot, but Im okay with that. Im going with my aunt, my two cousins, my brother and sister. England is always a place I have wanted to go, so I’m happy I have the chance to go. My plane leaves on Wednesday night, so I guess im supposed to sleep on the plane there, but I doubt that will happen. I have a couple of good books lined up and ready to be read.
When I get back I have about another week of work and then I start my two summer classes at RCC for a month. Its only 3 days a week all day for a month, so hopefully it will be fast, and then its back to working mostly and hopefully an internship. I fucked myself over with a music one this summer, so Im going to do my history one, cuz I have to anyway. Plus it would be at the Rockland Historical Society, and there isn’t anyone who loves Rockland more than me. Lol
But there are lots of things to look forward to. Set Your Goals on the 28th at the school of rock. Rock the bells with Wu tang, rage, mos def, and public enemy. The souls in long island. Michelle’s graduation party and I have an awesome idea for her grad present. And I have a 2nd date with a girl named Jessica. Shes pretty neat. Her favorite band is underoath, eh, but shes a really nice girl. It still kinda early, but I could see m self dating her and I haven’t felt like that in awhile. I was worried that we might not have anything in common, but we seemed to click and she said yes to a second date. Plus nina and hitchings coming home, plus the rest of the gaggle.
So my life plan
Graduate
Get a job in the music industry
If not, get a manager job at Hot topic
Still try for music industry.
Take police test at 25, if all else fails.
“shut up Hamilla!” |
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| it has been awhile |
[Mar. 30th, 2007|03:43 pm] |
The last couple of weeks I have been doing alot of things that I never knew which would interest me.
I've had the chance to start shooting videos and acting a little bit. Acting is alright, I really don't need to be anyone else. But I really like being behind the lens. All these different ideas and ideas of angles and the way to show emotion and creativity though has really gotten to me in the last month.
I honestly thought, the class would be really hard, but it's actually my easiest class.
I'm really heads over heels for this girl and she knows this. And feelings have been expressed on both points, but now its at a stall point.
Other than being a little awkward, my muttering, and my being anal about alot of things, my biggest down fall is letting things linger in my head for longer than they should be.
Also, go check out Owen. If you like New Amerstdamns, Jewel, Say Anything, Saves the Day, Kevin Devine, Elloit Smith, type of stuff.
I have 4 weeks left of my junior year in college.
- Hammy Time |
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[Jan. 31st, 2007|08:46 pm] |
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I am interviewing them both on Friday at the Chance. If you would like to ask them a question message me and I will ask them. |
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[Dec. 1st, 2006|02:40 am] |
Tomorrow my parents are putting my dog Charlie to sleep. Over the last couple of months she has been losing weight and not moving around as much. Over the last week she has not been eating and going outside. We have had Charlie since i was 7, thus her being 13 years old. Charlie was the dog of the house, the 6th member of our family. She was an extremely loyal dog and was always there when i walked into the house at 3am.
Before i went back to school after break, I went up and hugged Charlie and and i gave her a biscuit and some water. It was the first time she had ate and drank in about 4 days. It was a nice memory to leave with. Something I will always remember. I loved Charlie with my whole heart, she was the dog that made me a dog person. I couldn't have asked for a better friend and a better animal to have by your side for my childhood. I am just happy that she will no longer be in pain.
<3
Charlie
1993-2006
So if you please take this moment
Try if you can make it last
Don't think about no future and just forget about the past
and make it last. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2006|11:58 am] |
WMVL presents: Afterlife
THE Premiere HipHop event of the year
y
Time and Place:
Thursday, November 16, 2006 at 9:00pm - Tonight!!!!
Venue:
The Pub
Street:
2900 Purchase Street
City:
Purchase, NY
Email:
wmvl@mville.edu
Performances by:
G-Eyes
Termanology (headliner)
Max Jerome (DJ sets all nigt!)
With our second annual Rap Battle
Free with Mville ID
$5 off campus guest
There will be a bar, yes a bar! |
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| 11/16/06 AFTERLIFE - Hip Hop Event |
[Oct. 30th, 2006|04:27 pm] |
WMVL - Manhattanville College Radio
Presents
AFTERLIFE, Our Premier Hip Hop Event
There will be a live DJ spinning vinyl and a special performance.
We will also be having a MC Battle, with the winner receiving a $100 MasterCard gift prize.
To get into the Battle its $5 a head.
This event is free for on campus people.
It's $5 for off campus people.
There will be a bar!
If you are interested in attending or participating
drop a line to
wmvl@mville.edu |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 1st, 2006|01:34 pm] |
I had a very good time last night
and now i feel amazing.
beatiful babies
"shut up Hamilla!" |
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[Sep. 19th, 2006|01:29 pm] |
so last night was crazy
but other than being over worked and over tired and just bla like, im doing pretty well.
i got an employee of the month at hot topic and won $100, it was cool. i like working there for the most part, i could do with all the folding. Maybe i woudlnt be saying that if i was a better folder. Supposley im a good seller, so thats cool. Its the first job i have had that they dont want their best workers behind a register.
there has been so many movies i have wanted to see lately, hopefully i will see jackass ii on thursday night.
ive been quite lacking in the school depatment but im back on tracks as of yesterday.
so for the last two nights i have gotten this call from a restricted # and left a voice mail. at first i thought it might be roxy, and i was like ehh. Then last night i got a call from the same girl namd monica and she said i partied with her over the summer and that i should call her. Supposley i gave her my number when i was drunk and we partied in new city. Does anyone remember anything like that, cuz i dont. otherwise im being fucked with.
seshurc are awesome
hammy time is tuesday nights 5-8pm
listen in
or im me with requests
oh ya the stache is coming lol.
"shut up Hamilla!" |
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[Sep. 6th, 2006|11:35 pm] |
i am so stressed out
and i dont see any end in sight |
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[Aug. 11th, 2006|01:14 pm] |
So I went to see shadows fall at the nakoia theatre last night. I had VIP access and it was reallly cool and i got to meet alot of awesome people in the industry like booking agents, managers, talent, and alot of people form atalantic records.
But someone sat me down at the end of the night and told me I wouldnt be able to make it in the industry if I didnt start to learn to relax and stop being so fucking nervous about everything. I want this life so bad that and i know how I hate that about myself. I just need more confidence.
i also learned What NOT to do in the industry.
It was weird having to take of someone who is like one of the people I look up to and I want to be like. Espiocally cuz he was drunk and a dick, and I got stuck taking care of him. But i consider him a friend, so Id do it again.
Sorry if you tried plans with me the last week Ive been nonstop busy, Im sorry. I have work the next two nights, but If anyone wansto hang out call me. Espically nina and hitching its hard getting u cuz u both dont have cell phones.
I leave on the 21st for school, lets hangout before that.
"shut up Hamilla!" |
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[Jul. 20th, 2006|12:28 am] |
i begun to lie alot. Not even real lies. White lies that mean nothing at all. Maybe the music industry which makes u use white lies all the time, is rubbing off on me. I dont know why i even do it, it just happens.
i meet a girl, we went out, it was nice. kinda confusing since but hey
my knee still hurts all the time. i cant wait to go to the dr.
ive been doing alot of un like me things. Alot of late nights, alot of drugs for me at least, not really drinking.
i have my midterm review for my internship. Btw i only have a month left, and i have been there for 3 months already and if i suck why tell me now. Thats not a midterm review. Thats like going into a footbal game without a game plan and midway 3rd quarter coming up with a plan.
I really hope im doing well. I want to be in this job, in this industry so bad.
I know a downfall of mine is when i get nervous and everthing goes to shit. Like when i drive and i dont know where im going. I fucking hate that about myself. It happens to me like 2 or 3 times still and that shouldnt happen now. When it happens its like a fucking bus going over a cliff. I just cant think, talk, or move. I wish i knew how to stop doing that shit. I just wish i wasnt nervous about doing everything i do. There is where i could use a ego.
I know i wont sleep well cuz this will be on my mind all night tonight. I just want to be a college md more than i ever wanted to be anything in my whole life.
hitching is coming home this weekend and that makes me so very happy
last night there girl was talking about how she was really aggressive when it came to her boy friends. It made notice that i never knew a girl like that in my life. It be pretty awesome to have a girl who knew what she wanted.
Also, ive dated girls younger and older. But the only one i ever felt i was on the same level was, when we were the same age and thats only happend to me once. All the other girls seemed really unsure and always kinda looked up to me.
i had more on my mind,but im tired
"shut up hamilla!" |
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[Jul. 10th, 2006|02:13 pm] |
so i dont like july very much
21 days till this is over |
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[Jul. 4th, 2006|03:22 am] |
good luck
I hope to see you again
somewhere, some day |
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[Jun. 12th, 2006|11:50 pm] |
i realized sitting on the toliet today that im pulling like 40 hours of work a week
ive also gotten two phone #'s in the last 4 days
one was a def no go
but we had converstations about drama, theater, and pop culture in society which was really enjoyable
and i was a douche that night
but this other one, i dont know. she seemed really cool.
but well see
i also started to read pasion is a fashion - its a bio about the clash that was written after strummers death. does anyone know anything about it? When im done with that i plan on reading heroes and villians, and then sex, drugs and coco puffs, hopefully matt can give that to me before he leaves for tour.
Fatman - are you going to conan with me and andrew on next wednesday.
Conan and the gin blossoms in one week, amazingness
nina- at my job they have the grow a sor. you get dino eggs and you put them in water for 48 hours and out comes a dino. if you were home it be in ur hands already, i miss you.
Also was zepplain songs should i use to get into them. i have the rain song, stairway, all of my love, kashmir(which im not that into) and rock and roll. Also what stones songs.
how amazing were the bouncing souls, during the 2 times i saw them in a weeks period. Utterly amazing. I crowd surfed for the first time ever and it was utterly the scariest moment of my life, but awesome at the same time. And i got to see michelle !
"Shut up hamilla!" |
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[May. 24th, 2006|09:24 pm] |
So i finished this semster with a 2.75, which is okay. After school ended, me fatman, billy, lizzy, hitchings, headed up to oneonta. We went to a few parties the first night, which was alot of fun. The next night we went to this beef place, the name which i can not remember but, it was the king of all beef's places. We all ate so much, and andrew had to wear the chicken eating shirt lol. We then proceeded to head to this kid squrel's party. Squrel was a realy cool guy, and quite funny might i add. Actually all of mike's friends at school seem really cool. There was beer pong and me and hitchings knocked off who challenged us, and i was on fire. Then there was some flip cup and fatmans flammers held it down. That night i had shit written all over my body and that was a wonderful thing to wake up to, thanks fatman and andrew!
I started my internship at the syndicate. I mean my day starts at 6am and shower and eat breakfast and im out of the door by 7 to get the 8 am train to hoboken. Im there by 9 in which i take the 126 bus to hoboken and im at my job about 930ish. My day ends at 6pm and i dont get home usually till 8. So its a long day, plus i dont get a lunch break. I do the normal thing all interns do. Ship stuff out, answer phones, etc... The company manages Thursday, Stretch Arm Strong, Shadows Fall, Murder by Death, and some smaller bands. So they focus on promoting their bands and getting the word about them and making sure they are taken care of. The company also does radio promotion, has a street team, and own a record label called we put out records. They also do alot of work comedy central records. They are doing the new dane cook hbo special and i spent a few orders getting together packages of postcards and posters for it. So if you see that my hands were all over that stuff.
Everyone there is so nice. Really down to earth people, who just like music. They all work really hard, but dont get lost in their own stuff. There is a guy who lived like down the street from my but like graduated in like 92 and hes super nice. A guy named Bill who just got hired, used to date some from around here, and he seems really cool too.
Last night they had the Murder by death, cd release show at the knitting factory and a instore performance at the virgin mega store in union square. So we all went down to promote it and hang out. After the instore we went to this bar and i got bought free food and drinks, which was really nice. Then it was off the knitting factory and the after party, which was really fun. I really like it alot and i feel like im learning alot. I was worried to drink around everyone but i got offered by one of them and it seemed cool.
I feel really grown up by doing all this stuff, its something i love to get into after college. More and more i cant see myself staying home after i graduate. Stuff like this internship has given me alot of confidence about the future and being okay with going out on my own and trying to make it.
God there is really nothing to do without hitchings and nina around.
Im so happy i get paid on friday, im sooo broke.
Im enjoying my new short hair, it makes things alot easier. Also, ive given myself a blonde handle bar mustache for at least 1 day. I thought it be funny, so i would come see me to check it out.
"shut up hamilla!" |
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[May. 5th, 2006|10:49 am] |
Goodbye Manhattanville College see you in the fall
Last night was awesome.
I got really drunk.
I also stappled my hand.
GOT STUCK IN A ELVATOR FOR HALF AN HOUR
that was not fun at all.
"shut up hamilla!"
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